Am I falling in an abyss?

I feel like my life is fading away as I write this..

I'm scared because I keep getting sick over and over again..

I don't know if it's a flu or something but I'm really scared..

I feel like no one understands me..

I hate myself because I fall in love so easily..

I don't even know who I truly love at the moment..

I feel like I'm falling in a black abyss yet something (or someone?) is trying to pull me away from it...

Ugh..

I hate my life..