Am I falling in an abyss?

I feel like my life is fading away as I write this..

I'm scared because I keep getting sick over and over again..

I don't know if it's a flu or something but I'm really scared..

I feel like no one understands me..

I hate myself because I fall in love so easily..

I don't even know who I truly love at the moment..

I feel like I'm falling in a black abyss yet something (or someone?) is trying to pull me away from it...

Ugh..

I hate my life..

Vacations :(

Well, today was my last  day of school...

You're probably thinking 'Oh my god you are on vacations you should be so happy.'

If you are thinking that, you are wrong...


I hate it...

I want to be with my friends having a blast...

Not just sitting at home and being neglected by my brother...

I'm probably going to school during vacations...

I can't be seen by too many people though...

I hurt someone I care very much about and I'm not sure if he told anyone (specifically his GF who is one of my good friends)...

Ahh this bites...

I don't want 8th grade to end....

I will miss all my friends... .-.

Or, at least, the few people that I consider to be my friends...

THIS BITES MAN!!!... >.<

Story: Edited

This is the story of a young girl named Cecilia who is misunderstood. A lot of people mess with her and are mean to her for no reason. She thinks it has started happening since April 16,2008 (the worst day of her life). She has felt mad, sad, depressed, even suicidal. People have made her cry and feel weak and vulnerable. Cecilia doesn't believe in friends anymore because there will be one day where friends turn against you and tear you apart. It's happened to her plenty of times. She doesn't know what to do. She needs your help. She's not sure what to believe in anymore. The only thing she believes in now is Sadness. And don't even start with love because there is no such thing as love. When you think you find your true love they will just tear your heart into shreds, even ashes. For example, I went out with a guy and I thought (and I still think) he was the most perfect guy I have met. We went out for a day and, the next time he saw me, which was about 4 days later, he dumped me on the day of a dance and I saw him dancing with another girl and it hurt so much. Now he is mad at me and going out with one of my good friends and it makes me feel like crap.

By the way, I got tired of writing about Cecilia so I'm going to tell you that this story is about me.

Confusing problems...

Okay so I need your help...

I'm confused with what my heart thinks...

I am not sure who I love out of two people...

The first person was in love with me as well but he had a girlfriend. He made me a promise that he would always love me and that nothing would ever change that. He also told me it would be impossible for him to get mad at me. On May 26, 2009, he hurt me and broke the promise. He has been mad at me ever since that day and I don't know why. Don't know what to do about him because I am in A LOT of pain!!! But I also did something stupid today!.. Me and Denesse Stoops were going to go say good-bye to the A-trackers. Denesse asked me if I was going to say bye to him and I said "F*** him he hates me anyways". She said, "Are you sure? He's right behind us." Then, all of a sudden, all of the pain he had given me made me furious and I turned around to face Denesse and I said, "F*** (His name here)!" And, guess what, he was right behind Denesse and I could see his face and he looked devastated. I feel so bad and mean and guilty... AHHHH!!! Why am I so stupid?!?!? .-. 10/23/09

The second person has a girlfriend and says that he is in love with my friend and it hurts because she loves him back and when I see them together it's like someone is stabbing me with a lot of torture... I think I should forget about him since he will never love me...

WHAT DO I DO?!?!? :(

My heart is 50% for the first one...

And 50% for the second one...

My heart still prefers the first one even though he's put me through more pain than the second one...

I don't know what to do...

Should I follow my heart?...

HELP PLEASE!!! ;(

Knotts Berry Farm

Dude it was FREAKIN AWESOME!!!!

I went to Knotts Berry Farm on September 19th to celebrate my friend Casey's birfday!!! :)

Her birfday is in October but we celebrated early so that we could stay at Knotts longer...

It was cool!!!

Did I mention that we had funnel cake?

FUNNEL CAKE IS LIKE A PIECE OF HEAVEN DUDE!!! :)

Wellz I shudz be goinz nowz!!!

LOVE YOU ALL!!! <3

PEACE LOVE SMILES AND HARMONY!!!!! :]

the word of the day: SUPERCALIFRADJALISTICESPIALADOCIOUS

 THIS IS A RANDOM POST BY EDGAR! =]

OKAY WELL THATS THE WORD OF THE DAY. IT IS A SESQUAPADELIAN WORD MEANING IT HAS MANY SYLLABLES..      

 OKY CHEESBUGERS ARE AWSOME ESPECIALLY AT SCHOOL BUT THYEY GIVE ME HEARTBURN

I DONT LIKE MORNING BREATH BUT I WOULD LIKE TO BECOME A BEAR BECAUSE THEY ARE AWSOME'

SQUIREELS ARE AWSOME TO THEY CAN THROW NUTS AT PEOPLE

FRED FRED BURGER!!!!!!!!

N-A-C-H-O-S

NACHOS!!!!1

FRED FRED BURGER!!!!!!

FINALLY! :D

Finally I am relieved of all this stress! I finally turned in my English and Science Projects! However, more stress has come! :( We have another English assignment due on Friday! Another Science project is coming up too! And I thought I could've gotten a break... >:(

The Haunted Mirror

This is a true story. Do not make fun of it. One day, I was in my room. If you've been to my room, you would know there is a cabinet with a mirror on each door. Only Melina and Denesse have been to my room so I understand that you wouldn't know that. As I was saying, I was laying down on my bed and staring at the ceiling. I then saw a shadow zoom past in my mirror. I jumped and looked around. There wasn't anyone there. I then looked at my mirror and a bloody girl with hair all over her face was staring at me with an evil smile. I looked around in my room, but she was only in the mirror. I shook my head thinking it was a dream, it wasn't. She kept staring at me and there was what seemed like a knife in her hand. She then let out a deafening scream. I covered my ears and looked down, frightened. When I looked back up, she was gone. And please don't tell me I'm crazy because I know what I saw and I am traumatized by it. With Plenty of Love and Horror, CoCoPuFF